I am the most jealous person in the world. I don't actually do anything about it, because if I did I'd be crazy. I have to bottle it all up inside until it gets too full and bursts. It burst yesterday but now it's filling up again quickly.
When it comes to the guys I have huge crushes on (ie. Anthony and Toby) I can't help but hurt when I see them with their girls. I enjoy pretending they're single to make myself feel better but when I see pictures and shit, my bottle fills up as quick as I can say FML.
I found that whenever I have a crush in real life, it takes my attention away from the fantasy world and the men I don't have any chance with whatsoever. But when I'm alone...I'm completely broken. I know that when I find a boyfriend of my own, the grip I have around Toby and Anthony will loosen and I'll feel better when I remember they're taken. Until then, I'm dead inside.
I hate it when people get all cutesy about relationships; it grosses me out. I'm a bitter, nasty, selfish bitch when it comes to love but I can't help it. I've said I like Justine and I really do and I'm growing accustomed to Olga Kay but I can only see them seperate from Toby. If I see them together...my heart breaks. I sound like a loser, I know. I hate it.
Anyway, the reason why I haven't posted my Tobuscus fanfc is because I'm extra emotional this week and simple things like seeing Toby with girls discourages me and makes me feel like an idiot. So I apologize for that.
Monday, November 21, 2011
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Kalel Cullen
We all know who she is and for those who don't, she's Anthony Padilla's girlfriend. I thought it was time to put my opinion on the whole controversy that's been going around.
Kalel isn't a bad person. The only reason people truly hate on her is because she's dating a guy none of us will ever date let alone meet. So I have no idea why people are calling her names like that. I myself, don't like her but don't hate her. I'm jealous, yes, but I'm not gonna go bully her on the internet and be a bitch about it. I can't believe people even do that in the first place! Why do you think it's okay to go directly to the person and tell them you hate their guts and call them names? You have no reason to; she didn't do anything directly to you! I understand if she actually did, you might have a reason but to the majority, no she's done nothing wrong.
If Anthony loves her then we should respect that and not hate on her. Imagine if you loved a boy and he loved you back, but then a whole mass amount of girls that liked him started hating on you just because you two were together. That's total bullshit and you'd feel shitty if that happened to you!
I heard that people actually dedicated a site to hating her videos. That is the true definition of RUDE AND IMMATURE. People actually take the time out of their day to post on the site just to bring somebody they don't even know down.
As to Kalel herself, she is one of the strongest girls out there. She deals with all this cruel hate and even if it does get to her, she doesn't show it. All that matters to her are her fans and the people that love her. Hell, if Anthony loved me I wouldn't give TWO FUCKS about what other people thought of me. She's one lucky gal and we have to just deal with the fact that Anthony will not nor will ever love us the way he loves her. I know it's terrible to think, but it's the hard truth.
Anyway, this blog wasn't meant to make you guys feel like shit, I'm just stating my opinion on how some of my friends are taking this Kalel controversy. Most of you are taking it well or don't even care, but some I've seen are not.
I'm saying this to the HARD-CORE HATERS: Grow up and get a life. Stop hating on the poor girl, who does nothing but make videos for her fans and for herself.
Thank you.
Kalel isn't a bad person. The only reason people truly hate on her is because she's dating a guy none of us will ever date let alone meet. So I have no idea why people are calling her names like that. I myself, don't like her but don't hate her. I'm jealous, yes, but I'm not gonna go bully her on the internet and be a bitch about it. I can't believe people even do that in the first place! Why do you think it's okay to go directly to the person and tell them you hate their guts and call them names? You have no reason to; she didn't do anything directly to you! I understand if she actually did, you might have a reason but to the majority, no she's done nothing wrong.
If Anthony loves her then we should respect that and not hate on her. Imagine if you loved a boy and he loved you back, but then a whole mass amount of girls that liked him started hating on you just because you two were together. That's total bullshit and you'd feel shitty if that happened to you!
I heard that people actually dedicated a site to hating her videos. That is the true definition of RUDE AND IMMATURE. People actually take the time out of their day to post on the site just to bring somebody they don't even know down.
As to Kalel herself, she is one of the strongest girls out there. She deals with all this cruel hate and even if it does get to her, she doesn't show it. All that matters to her are her fans and the people that love her. Hell, if Anthony loved me I wouldn't give TWO FUCKS about what other people thought of me. She's one lucky gal and we have to just deal with the fact that Anthony will not nor will ever love us the way he loves her. I know it's terrible to think, but it's the hard truth.
Anyway, this blog wasn't meant to make you guys feel like shit, I'm just stating my opinion on how some of my friends are taking this Kalel controversy. Most of you are taking it well or don't even care, but some I've seen are not.
I'm saying this to the HARD-CORE HATERS: Grow up and get a life. Stop hating on the poor girl, who does nothing but make videos for her fans and for herself.
Thank you.
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